Is it weird that after I traced the banana for the
picture, I ate it??
Baby Size: Banana (length from head to toes)
Symptoms: Thirst and small movements
Cravings: Anything with sugar (I'm in trouble)
Well last night I had a dose of reality. I was sleeping when I got a text at 2a.m. saying that my Sister-in-law had her baby girl last night. I am so thrilled and cannot wait to meet her. I was so excited when I heard the news and then it hit me......that is going to be me in less than 5 months. I was in total panic and couldn't fall back asleep. My mind was racing and my anxiety was fueled. I grabbed my computer and started researching, which was a horrible idea. I kept reading about all the fun things that come with having a baby. I don't mean the coming home from the hospital with the bundle of joy, I mean the painful times at the hospital and what comes shortly after. I have never had much anxiety about the actual childbirth usually just about the whole raising a baby thing. Last night, the realization that my body is no longer only mine really hit me. After what I read last night, it doesn't look like there is much more I can do to prepare. I guess I'll just stick with my prenatal yoga.
I will say that I am very grateful that I get to have this experience. I have been so fortunate during this pregnancy and feel that my body is doing something amazing. While it is fast becoming quite terrifying I am so looking forward to everything that will come.